Lately I’ve been an exercise junkie. All I do is work out and try super hard to eat healthy. I’ve always been really competitive and pretty in shape.
My best friend has an eating disorder. It started in high school. She’s about 5’9 so she’s not a petite girl. However, she’s never been fat. She became obsessed with her image. The summer between our sophomore and junior years she lost over 35 pounds. She was 5’9” and less than 100 pounds. Her hair was falling out, she got put on “suspension” from Cheerleading because she was so unhealthy, lost her period, and couldnt digest her food. Her body would reject anything healthy. She’s 20 now and still struggles. She’s gained weight but only because her body absorbs as much fat as possible.
It has consumed her.
I live at the beach (lucky me) so I’m always worried about my body. There are so many days when I obsess over my body too. I put on a bikini and stare at all my flaws. How unhealthy is that? Well, it gets worse.
In high school I struggled with an eating disorder but never told anyone. I hated my body, and while it’s not HUGE, I still hate it. I never feel perfect enough and quite honestly, I know I’m not alone.
Girls everywhere are struggling with this everyday. Don’t tell me you don’t count your calories or avoid certain foods because you know it’ll go straight to your inner thighs. After a night of heavy drinking, I bet you’re just dying for the gym. BUT WHY?!?
Well, our male visioned society. When’s the last time you saw a man half naked on a cover? The only magazine I know that does that is gq, but no girls actually read that. However, walk into any store and all you see are tiny girls in bikinis with “try this diet” written on the covers.
LET’S GET REAL: those girls are photoshopped. Not to mention they spend their days in the gym and pay people to make them always look perfect. Men like perfect. I love my boyfriend and he’s great but at the end of the day if there’s a girl on a movie in a tiny bikini, he’s going to look. He’s not trying to hurt me or make me feel imperfect, but it does.
I don’t know about y’all but I wish we lived in the early 1900’s where men were turned off by naked women. They appreciated their wives and were so much more thankful for a natural pretty. I want to be good enough, just like you.
So, it’s best if we remember that we are enough. If you have a flabby tummy, well, you have a flabby tummy. GOD BUILT YOU THIS WAY!! God wants you this way for a reason. He knows there is someone who will love you and never look at anything as a flaw. So look at those playboy girls. Yeah, their photoshopped bodies probably look perfect. What do they have? Not their dignity, that’s for sure! Not a man that loves them or a family that smiles upon them! They don’t have a love for God strong enough to change in support of him!
EAT THAT DONUT! Go running in the morning so all day you’ll be proud and happy! EAT ICE CREAM! But don’t over indulge. Be healthy and smart. By healthy and smart I mean to love yourself and be smart in how you see yourself. Stop comparing your body to anyone else. Do you and do you well. That is who God has brought you to be. You are more than a love handle or a double chin, YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD. love yourself and others the way the Lord loves you!!